i got nothin’ to worry about.

There are some random things in life that I love more than I can explain… but I’ll try to convey this one…

Scratchy radio.

I love it.  Listening to good songs on a station that sounds like you’re just barely getting it… like you’re lucky to have this listen… like it’s telling you, “Remember the amazement of radio waves”… like you’ve gone back in time and have these few minutes before you have to go back to the real world.

I looked back to my journal today… an entry from about a month ago…

“Scratchy radio.  Listening to the live, whole ‘Chutes Too Narrow’ album on NPR.  The sunny morning, in Bobby’s old car, by the river, with Bobby, me in a dress, smiling, just being, listening to scratchy radio.  It was perfect.  So perfect.  I couldn’t stop smiling.

Scratchy radio.  Turned on the radio today at work.  It was that ‘run yourself a million miles’ song that I got on a mix from Nic.  Gosh, it made me smile.   The scratchy radio, barely coming through, bringing me back.  Precious times.  Brought me back to running in Yosemite.  The valley loop, the fresh smells, seeing bears, being terrified, running faster, with a stupid grin, El Cap in gold, Half Dome in pink.”

Then today.  Oh, today.  Wanted to go for a long run out on the Elk Refuge… where I truly fell in love with Jackson three years ago…

Diana and myself camping in Curtis Canyon.
diana and myself camping in curtis canyon via 2006.
i can honestly remember the instant i fell for this place.
i can honestly remember the instant i fell for this place.

Today, I’m driving out there… to the site of our first real affair… when the radio is turned to a station that comes in just clear enough…

Scratchy radio.  Peter, Bjorn and John.  Oh man, how Anna and I used to wait until the boss left the office at Alpinist, just so we could call the radio station and request those guys… then turn our radios up LOUD.  How happy it made us to sing loud, dance hard and smile big… until our fun-spongue of a boss came back.  This song.  How it might be my new favorite.  How it’s just too perfect right now… AND it’s being heard via scratchy radio…

[i love it.  i love it all.]

[here’s the actual broadcast i listened to… but it was more special… cuz it was scratchy… http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=104435061]

1 thought on “i got nothin’ to worry about.”

  1. I want to have a hairspray day now, just because of seeing that video. I wonder if I could get it to stand straight up…

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