If anyone was wondering, change is hard.
And that’s just how it goes.
But, I have to keep reminding myself, I wouldn’t trade the hard for the comfortable… the evolution for the stagnation.
It’s always been the darkness that breaks my bones so they can reset correctly and grow… really grow.
So, what do you do when you loose it? Cry at a market. Crumble in the kitchen. Have a drink at noon.
You sleep. You wake. You cut some fruit, start anew and listen.
Listen to yourself.
Listen to your friends.
Listen to this:
wull hay. 
I’m only kind of sorry for you. I am a little sorry for you because I know change is hard, and it takes some time and you miss people and things that you took for granted. But I am not sorry for you because…you are RACHEL LAUREN MARIE STEVENS and your are the most fun/lovable/kind/happy/friend in the world and you make friends like I change diapers! (which is a lot). And where ever you are there will also be good times right around the corner. I LOVE YOU.
i love you, brittnee.
you have no idea how much this comment saved me. i think i started crying as soon as i read it… maybe the reason i never thanked you for it.
cannot WAIT ’til you and the gorgeous fam come visit me here sometime… you’d love it.
love you to pieces, my darlin’!